Private Party

 Today's message

And aint it a good one?! 

This quote really spoke to me this morning.

It's gross and rainy outside. I am so tired I feel like my eyes are hanging out of my head.  I'm pretty stressed at the moment with the anticipation of leaving my current well-paid, cushy job and taking a huge leap of faith and start playing music professionally. Needless to say, my head's not in the game today. Going to the gym today is not very high on my list of "things I want to do". Today is one of those days I need a JFDI cap, like Mish!

But I'll go.  Because persistence is key.

I'll go because at the end of every work out, I know I am closer to that version of myself I have wanted to meet for so long. The healthier, happier version. The confident, proud and exuberant person I know myself to be on the inside. Each time I work out, it feels like that sheen of sweat that develops on my body- thats the new me coming out.

It feels good.

One of the virtues I'm learning with the 12wbt is not just persistence- but patience, patience with myself, and patience with seeing results.

I have to try SO hard to NOT get on the scales EVERY morning.  Because I'm excited about my body changing, and because I see it, and I feel it, and I want there to be concrete evidence of it right away- either on the numbers on the scales, or someone noticing I'm looking more toned etc.

I'll admit. Patience is something I've probably always struggled with. My folks reckon it's a Gen Y thing. We're all about immediate gratification. We rarely have to wait for things anymore.  We're constantly bombarded my quick fixes to everything- especially weight loss (as if any kind of quick-fix to weight loss has ever truly worked for anyone).  I want to see results quicker! I want smaller sizes already! I feel amazing- like a new person, how come I still kind of look the same!?

But what I'm learning is this: If I allow myself to jump on the scales every morning, I am training my brain to think that the numbers on the scales matter the most. 

They don't.

It's how I feel that matters.

So lately, instead of jumping on the scales every morning before I shower, I've been stripping off and appreciating my body in the mirror. Taking it all in. How I feel. How I look. Appreciating the changes as they happen slowly, and thanking my body for working hard with me. We're in this together. Me and my body. We're a team!

The soundtrack to this blog is a song by India Arie called "Private Party". I've linked it here for you.

Have a listen and a bit of a dance ;)

♥ Happy Friday ♥

x bRee