"So this is the new year....

...and I don't feel any different."- Death Cab For Cutie

What do you do when you get to a point in your life where you feel like- no matter how hopeful you were about the new year, it turned out just like every other, and you struggled just like every other year to reach countdown, grasping at it like it was your last breathe, your last chance- get me OUT of this godforsaken year!

Ok so maybe thats a LITTLE dramatic.. but kind of true, for me at least.

It seems year after year I manage to have got myself into some kind of funk that is so terribly deep and wide that it nearly consumes me, and that by the end of the year- the promise of a new one is the only thing that gets me through those last few weeks, days etc.

And as much as I hate drama, I live for it.
As much as I hate hurting, I love watching my resilience come to bear- almost like when the sun hits a stained glass window at just the right angle, and you can see for a moment- the whole, beautifully coloured picture.


But i've been thinking lately...
what happens if one year... i dont make it to countdown?

I don't want to get to the point where my today's end... and realise i was always living for tomorrow... (or midnight on the 31st of december for that matter!)

So THIS YEAR does not come with the hope of another one to save me from me last.

This year comes with no safety net of resolutions and scheduled epiphony.

This year rests solely in one word: Action.

TODAY.. i am making my TODAY count.

I am telling the people that i love, that I LOVE THEM and the reasons why.

I am saying what i'm thinking, when i think it. (yes, even more than i do already, beware kids)

I am getting off my ass and GOING FOR A RIDE OUTSIDE.

I'm starting assignments when I get them, and AIMING HIGHER than I have before.

I am getting my music OUT THERE... wherever that may be.

I am SAVING and I am TRAVELLING, to places I have not been before... even if it's only an hour or so from home.

I am LETTING GO of all the STUFF I have in my life.. and focusing on the people.


I'm cutting strings so that i can try and me someone who is lighter than I was...
so that i can breeze in and out of other peoples lives and maybe help them do the same.

I'm getting my tumbleweed on...


ACTION PEOPLE!
ACTION!

x bRee